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[23 Dec 2005|09:29pm] |
well it seems like nobody comes on LJ anymore
which is kinda good cuz i like to post my thoughts
just to get it all out not for everybody and their mom
to know
well im so happy that im done and overwith henry
i was so miserable but now it seems like
i dont even care
and i like it that way
i like how he can be in the same room with his gf
and it doesnt even faze me
i used to be really bad and cry about everything
but i honestly do not give a shit
hes stupid and has no life
and im actually trying to do something with mine
i have moved on to bigger and waaaaaaaaaay better things
and im happy now
and im so happy that im happy
idk
its weird cuz i never had this much freedom
since i was with him for like 80 years
i like it
<3
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| November 19, 2003 |
[19 Nov 2005|10:28pm] |
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2 years ago i met an AMAZING person
He had charisma and personality.
I was amazed at his talent and knowledge on music.
I could sing any song and he would know exactly who sang it and when.
I fell in love.
Many memories, many fights...
My Christmas that year seemed so.....pleasant.
I thought nothing would ever end so bad, as bad as now.
As time went on, it seemed as if he lost faith in himself, as if he didnt care what happened in his future.
He stopped going to school and hell i dont know even know if he graduated, he lies.
Now, it seems like all he tries to do is just make me mad, make me jealous.
I stopped careing, i stopped worrying, he makes the worst descions at the worst times and i dont think i could talk to him like that ever again.
Seems like all i did was waste 2 years of life on him.
Yeah i got experience and fun out of it but if this is how we are going to be, then let it be.
I hope he learned alot about being a "good boyfriend" so he can try with someone else because all i ever wanted to do was please him, so if i do talk to him, if he does call tonight.
I will answer,
but that will be the last.
<3
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[18 Sep 2005|12:05am] |
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All I see is your smile
Your happiness brings tears to my eyes
I love you so much; it’s too hard for me to give everything up
I wish you would see it that same way
Instead you’re out with someone else
I’m here thinking about all our memories
I say “our” because I believe we still exist
Our love will never die
Our friendship is to strong
Stab me in the heart again
Go on and tell me about her
Hopefully I drop dead so you don’t have to worry
I hate worrying you
Don’t care
Don’t look out for me
Let me be
I love you
I wish I could erase us so this wouldn’t hurt so much
I wish I could feel those raindrops on my head just like
I felt them at the beginning of our journey to what we used to have
I love you
Don’t look at me like you do
Don’t tell me you have fun with her
I hope we don’t end
I love you
I love you
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[04 Sep 2005|12:09am] |
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ponytail parades-emery |
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Three sleepless nights,
this isn't how its supposed to be.
But you are so good at
taking your time to get back to me.
I will wait for you forever,
if you would just ask me.
I thought that I could change you
but you changed me.
But it doesn't feel right,
holding someone else's hand.
Together on phone line,
and living at two opposite ends.
It scares me to think,
that you could find takers other than me
and better than me.
But you're head is elsewhere,
and I’m talking enough for both of us.
When will you see it's not (it’s not) so easy for me
you’re careless, and whispered, insulting, and bruising.
And I thought that you said
things were improving.
These laces are untied,
but my feet are still walking away.
(I fall from you eyes, your eyes I trusted, you said forever)
I never thought that you could say these words.
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
(Don't say...)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
(Don't say that we can...)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
(Don't say that we can still be...)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
Is this really happening?
(Don't say that we can still be friends)
Erase my name from this page.
How can you take all these days
(What is inside of me what have I done?)
and throw them away
(Is this the only way that you will notice me?)
as I sit here waiting for you (for you)
(Dead words for closed ears all this is sung for you)
I stay up nights
(If you are still pretending this is what's right)
until stars leave the sky
(Why cant you look at me can you only see?)
knowing what my dreams can take away
(Sides, your side, can take away)
Walk away from me.
This night is done.
this is such an old song but im listening to it right now and i realized it explained everything im feeling right now.
i hate pain.
<3 crys
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[09 Aug 2005|11:16pm] |
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WEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLL!!!!
i totally had deleted my myspace and Henrys myspace so im bored and i dont know what to do, anyway.....i hate drama and it takes over my life, it sucks. Well i love henry. byebyes.
<3
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| wow! |
[25 Jul 2005|02:23am] |
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THe Bled. |
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OK so i totally forgot that i even had an LJ until my love brought it up...anywho...
bye <3
 I love MY BABY!!!
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[10 Apr 2005|01:27pm] |
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These past couple weeks have been hell. I try and try to get through it but i simply can't. I love him and he knows i do but all he can think of is how i fucked up. I don't blame him, i did. I just wish that everything could be different and that he would love me no matter what, but he doesnt, "I care but I don't care" he says to me like it doesnt hurt for me to know that. I hate crying everyday....everthing these days is so emotional for me. Any little comment or anything to hurt my feelings just makes me cry...I love him soooo much but he wants someone who doesnt lie to him. i'm always happy with him well when were not arguing. I love being happy with him, i love it. Hes the only one who cared so much but now its all thrown away and i can't do anything about it. i love you.
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| take me away... |
[16 Feb 2005|09:31pm] |
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i feel loved...<3
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[31 Jan 2005|05:14pm] |
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niki fm-Hawthorne Heights |
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3Rd Place out of what 45 teams!
yes were awesome!...The Spurs Dance team Compition is where we placed andwe got to perform at the game! we are AWESOEMLY AWESOME!
DA HOTT SPURS SILVER DANCERS!!!
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| FUN! |
[18 Jan 2005|10:59pm] |
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i'm content with losing |
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AWW today was mucho fun i went out the "fab four". We were like driving around for like ever! Then we finally went to Jack in the Crack and then we chilled in the parking lot of the mall...FUN-NESS!
 <<<<playing around at jack-in-the-crack
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[16 Jan 2005|11:30pm] |
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CATS!!!
Krystelle and I went to Corpus and we saw <CATS>, it was soooooo GOOD! i love it i guess i'm kinda a Cats freak cuz i have the DVD, soundtrack, and the book that the musical is based on....and now i have seen it YAY! and i'm gonna see it again when it comes to san antonio anywho!!!! it was mucho fun at night when my parents went to sleep...::wink:wink::
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[09 Jan 2005|01:40pm] |
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i just dont think i'll ever get over you- colin hay |
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Theres no one in the world like henry...
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| NEW YEARS WHA>>? |
[03 Jan 2005|09:58pm] |
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right side of the bed- atreyu |
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Fun on New YEars!!! Krystelle and I were Partying it up on Friday...so much fun!!! here are some pics from new years and some random pics from the weekend...
 ahhh! dont like beer but hey why not?
 Crazy woman!!
 Chug it grandma!
 whos this guy?!?!?!
 RANDOm cool picture???
.....well homies i did have fun as u can see...love my bestest pal ever and PEACE!
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| i love your grandpa |
[28 Dec 2004|12:38am] |
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Mr.Mistoffeles-Cats |
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<My Favorite SHoes>
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| smack my bitch up |
[21 Dec 2004|11:40pm] |
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niki fm- hawthorne heights |
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Damn.....Crazy ass nights with gay people.
i love it when i'm drunk...i get so horny!
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[20 Dec 2004|03:03pm] |
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::crystal takes off her shirt::
KRYSTELLE: DAMN! your boobs are so big i just wanna suck them...
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| ~HiDERS~ |
[16 Dec 2004|09:30pm] |
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Man crazy ass times with my bestest pal, Krystelle. Well on wednesday we decided to go home with gilbert and Henry was gonna meet up with us at his house. well he couldnt come right away so we were like SHIT but then we found a ride, my other pal Austin came to the rescue and picked him up. So we were all there just "chillin" and then Gilbert's like "FUCK my dad is home!" so me and krystelle panic and were in gilbs room waiting for him to leave then gilbert tells us to go into pam's room (his sis) and we're there practically hiding under her bed, it was pretty funny actually. Well he ends up leaving in like 30 mins and we're like "damn finally". They had ordered pizza while me and krystelle were hiding and we ate and stuff... but damn it was crazay!! AND my other pal Nick picked up stelle and I and took us home... Thank you guys!!! love yous!
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| leaving me... |
[10 Dec 2004|05:45pm] |
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:-(
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[06 Dec 2004|05:42pm] |
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EMERY <3 FROM FIRST TO LAST BOYS NIGHT OUT ROSES ARE RED
Bad ass show last night! i went with evie, jessica, liz, and desiree. it was awesome. i met henry there and we were jammin out but he left me there and i couldnt breathe and then i got stuck in a mosh pit but it was fun. Emery was fuken bad ass, damn they were awesome. From First to last was great too, i was like in the front and i was like screaming "RIDE THE WINGS OF PESTILENCE!!!" and i could feel his spit on my face...it was great! roses are red are pretty bad ass but yeah it was an awesome show! love it! wooo im so gonna see emery again in jan. peace out homie g's! * love u babe!
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